// bullying//

nice. So you are finally at university, where all the nerds become the cool people, and bullying really isn’t an issue anymore. And you believe the more intelligent your collegues are the nicer and more understanding they will be.

Well apparently shit doesn’t work that way.

So I know I’m a bit hard to work with, but when I dedicate myself to something I do it with all heart. I know I’m not the best…actually my only goal is to get through and get a positive grade….fuck A+  when you have your degree nobody gives a fuck about grades.

but I’m in a group of ambicient motherfuckers (I’m so glad they don’t know about this blog) and they aren’t willing to accept a C + or whatever I was aiming at. SO there the problem goes. I have plenty of other shit to do and had to prepare for work and they just don’t fuckin care. They are just like “bitch, if you ain’t work your ass off we’ll stab you” - they ofcourse didn’t say it that way, but I swear to god thats what they ment. And well.. now no matter how much effort I put into something they aren’t impressed…ever…by anything. And I just feel like the black sheep. and yeah its just fuckin pressure… nobody tells them to work THAT hard and they do it anyway, so that I just look like a fuckin loser all the time in comparison to them. It’s fuckin aweful.

And well they are constantly telling me stuff like “is that ALL you did?” “are you kidding me? I do this in 10min” “you suck…you really do”

well thanks, it totally doesn’t sting -.-

I am currently working the night through… I’m more scared of these motherfuckers than I’m scared of my professors…like…where’s the sense in that?

I would literally just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Or cut my wrists and bleed to death or something.. just to not have to deal with them anymore. NOTHING in the world is worse than somebody telling you that you are nothing, that you’ll never be good enough, and that you’ll never achieve anything in your life.

it’s like… oh well thanks, I totally didn’t feel like a waste of space before..

why am I always the target of bullying :’( ?

megmastersdemon:

bedquest:

dear fucking tumblr

this is a fucking bumblebee

this is a fucking bee

this is a fucking hornet

this is a fucking wasp

as you can fucking see the longer their legs are and the less fuzzy they are is equivalent to how fucking evil they fucking are

what the fuck is up with those wasps

I fuckin know, right? like how the fuck do they even funktion? 

(via i-wanna-be-a-little-kid-agen)

watchtheskytonight:

diannaluvslea:

sillylittleshoteka:

spontaneousfangasm:

sovietkittens:

if you go to hell for being bad why wouldn’t satan reward you for it why does he make you suffer wtf id be like hell yeah motherfucker you my nigga lets party

i started to laugh and then i realized that this is actually a really valid question

Alternatively, if Satan punishes sinners, why isn’t he considered good?

If the Pope dies, is he being promoted or fired?

We’re becoming self aware

(via shred-head)

// the worst feeling//

is when you give anything and try the hardest you possibly can and they still tell you that you aren’t good enough. in fact they tell you that you suck and insult you on top of it all. 

I hate my life so much right now.

I want to be happy, because I know how bad life can be.. and I struggled so hard to get out of depression, I don’t wanna be thrown back into that dark pit, I don’t wanna go back were I have been.. ever.. those were dark times I wish to forget.

I don’t wanna cry.

and still beside all of this, I smile everyday, I try to be friendly and patient, and still somewhere deep down I know that all those smiles are fake and I’m just really broken inside… and very very sad.