nice. So you are finally at university, where all the nerds become the cool people, and bullying really isn’t an issue anymore. And you believe the more intelligent your collegues are the nicer and more understanding they will be.
Well apparently shit doesn’t work that way.
So I know I’m a bit hard to work with, but when I dedicate myself to something I do it with all heart. I know I’m not the best…actually my only goal is to get through and get a positive grade….fuck A+ when you have your degree nobody gives a fuck about grades.
but I’m in a group of ambicient motherfuckers (I’m so glad they don’t know about this blog) and they aren’t willing to accept a C + or whatever I was aiming at. SO there the problem goes. I have plenty of other shit to do and had to prepare for work and they just don’t fuckin care. They are just like “bitch, if you ain’t work your ass off we’ll stab you” - they ofcourse didn’t say it that way, but I swear to god thats what they ment. And well.. now no matter how much effort I put into something they aren’t impressed…ever…by anything. And I just feel like the black sheep. and yeah its just fuckin pressure… nobody tells them to work THAT hard and they do it anyway, so that I just look like a fuckin loser all the time in comparison to them. It’s fuckin aweful.
And well they are constantly telling me stuff like “is that ALL you did?” “are you kidding me? I do this in 10min” “you suck…you really do”
well thanks, it totally doesn’t sting -.-
I am currently working the night through… I’m more scared of these motherfuckers than I’m scared of my professors…like…where’s the sense in that?
I would literally just want to go to sleep and never wake up. Or cut my wrists and bleed to death or something.. just to not have to deal with them anymore. NOTHING in the world is worse than somebody telling you that you are nothing, that you’ll never be good enough, and that you’ll never achieve anything in your life.
it’s like… oh well thanks, I totally didn’t feel like a waste of space before..
why am I always the target of bullying :’( ?